Moving to a new school was a big deal for me, I was at last able to leave behind the torment dished out to me by the kids who made fun of me because of my weight. New school, new start. I tried hard to make friends over the next year but I still felt like an outsider. I ended up skipping school when I could get away with it and that was how I met Dan.
Dan understood me. He knew how unhappy I was. He took me under his wing and told me not to worry about that fact he was a lot older than me – what mattered was how we felt when we were together. He did warn me not to mention it to my mum though, as she wouldn’t understand.
He liked that I was a bit bigger than other girls. He made me laugh and feel good about myself. We used to hang out with his mates and they spoiled me, buying me drinks and cigarettes. In the early days we had such a great time, finally I felt wanted.
The fun stopped when he invited one of his mates to have a threesome. He told me it was the least I could do, considering his mate had put on the party. Over the next few months, things got worse and he became abusive, hitting me if I refused to have sex with his mates. He would lock me in hotel rooms and I would to wait to see who came through the door. I felt so alone and I hated myself for wanting Dan no matter what.
I couldn’t speak to my mum about it – she didn’t understand and she was never around anyway. I couldn’t trust anyone at school either. I felt so low that I started to cut myself because the pain I felt when I did it made me feel better. My life line came when one of my friends noticed the cuts on my arm and told a teacher.
Telling someone about Dan and his mates was the best thing I did. Dan was the adult and I was kid. He knew I was vulnerable and he took advantage of me, I can see that now. Dan and his mates have been locked up and will be spending the next 8 years in prison. If my story saves just one person from experiencing what I went through, I know some good will have come from my experience.
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